Slumber Until My Death 

Soul dark worn out
Pain so great
Nothing left inside
I tried to find happiness
Happiness ran out on me
I’ve got to pull myself
Out of myself
Hidden deep inside myself
I’ve got to eat my suffering
I’ve got to drink my tears away
She is my hole in my heart
Absence of warm flesh
No body for me to hold
No face for me to look Upon
Just the shadows
In this lonely, old home
Just the mental images
Inside my deranged, fragile mind
I’m a slave of decay
Haunted by faded yesterday
The blood in my veins
Feels like hardened crystals;
Lay in the dirt let the
Death worm crawl into my ear
Burrow deep in my brain
Devour my pain
Choke down my shattered,
Fragmented memories
Chew and swallow my eyes
So that I can no longer see
The beauty of happiness
Which is a visual of misery
My own personal Hell
Can I fall into a coma
Slumber until my death

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Human Being 

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I am just a human being
What is inside can’t be seen
A broken, shattered heart
A frozen soul ice hard
Your eyes can’t pentatrate
My mind, you can’t alleviate
My deep hidden pain
You can’t help or change
Who I am or what I am
You won’t understand;
I make many mistakes
Gone through heartbreak
Misery is an unwanted friend
That visits time and again
Sadness is well known
The darkness is my home;
Into the mirror I gaze
I am caught in a haze
What do I see before me
A broken, fragile human being
I am not perfect, I am alive
If you could feel as I
You would massage my heart
Caress my mind which is dark
You would gently hold
My shattered, aching soul;
Can you show me how to smile
Am I too repulsive and vile
Teach me how to feel
Let your warm embrace heal
I am not normal, far from
You might just turn and run;
I am barely a man, disesteemed
By definition only, a human being

I’m Broken

broken

My heart is stained, stained greatly with pain

My blood flows like shards of glass in my veins

Deep, deep, deep inside the flame glows brightly

Intense heat, intense flame, intense burning

Insane, insanity to the extreme, fierce insanity

I can’t breathe, just deep searing pain in my chest

I can’t speak, my brain is throbbing in my skull

Bones, my bones weak and feel cracked and broken

I can’t see, too blind from the blood and ashes in my eyes

Bruises, aches, aches and bruises up and down my body

Invisible aches and bruises inside my tortured body

Cuts and scratches on my flesh run deep to my core

You can’t see me, you don’t know me

I’m just a shell

Forced to live in this cruel,

Blackened,

Heartless Hell