Human BeingĀ 

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I am just a human being
What is inside can’t be seen
A broken, shattered heart
A frozen soul ice hard
Your eyes can’t pentatrate
My mind, you can’t alleviate
My deep hidden pain
You can’t help or change
Who I am or what I am
You won’t understand;
I make many mistakes
Gone through heartbreak
Misery is an unwanted friend
That visits time and again
Sadness is well known
The darkness is my home;
Into the mirror I gaze
I am caught in a haze
What do I see before me
A broken, fragile human being
I am not perfect, I am alive
If you could feel as I
You would massage my heart
Caress my mind which is dark
You would gently hold
My shattered, aching soul;
Can you show me how to smile
Am I too repulsive and vile
Teach me how to feel
Let your warm embrace heal
I am not normal, far from
You might just turn and run;
I am barely a man, disesteemed
By definition only, a human being

Immaculate Bliss

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Is the pain beneath the skin

Am I A tortured soul

Does the flame burn within

No one will ever know;

Gloomy days embody me

Blazing heart turned black

My eyes cry never-ending misery

Hiding my sorrow behind your back;

Put on my soiled mask daily

Along with my torn torniquet

Cover my emotional wounds insanely

My bleeding heart has no benefit;

I’m screaming behind my smile

I’ve become great at deceit, telling lies

Live in two worlds, not denial

Grotesque reality, I struggle to survive;

Put my heart in a noose

I’m blind to beauty and happiness

Escape by death if i choose

Wanting eternal, immaculate bliss

Sad Reality

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People stare at me through their windows

They just can’t believe their eyes

Standing back away in the shadows

They don’t see me on the inside;

People spit in my face

Taunt, curse, and damn me

They say I’m pitiful , a disgrace

They just don’t understand me;

I’m not wealthy, but I’m not a fool

I do bleed and cry with pain

Been criticized, but taught the golden rule

Society’s dubbed me a crying shame;

I’ m poor and without a home

I haven’t any friends, left standing in the cold

All I have here is my sanity

All I have to fear is reality